Thinking back at the last ten years produces a lot of reflection for me. Oh the things that have changed. It's really insane. I thought I would pick a couple of my favorite moments from each year to share with all of you. I hope you enjoy and are reflecting too. A decade is a long time, even if it goes by so quick. 2019This past year has been a year of self-searching. I got to be apart of my dear friend Alexi's wedding and our nephew Micah was born! Jason and I went through some ups and downs (quite literally, as we hiked 7 miles straight up), and persevered through it all. 2018 Most of 2018 consisted of wedding planning, getting engaged, etc. It really flew by but it was definitely a year for the books. 2017I spent most of the summer 2017 traveling. I also started dating Jason in the summer and my sis got married. My parents also got divorced that year. Oh what a year that was! 2016Not a lot of life changes to report for 2016 but here are some highlights. I traveled to New York, Duluth, and Colorado. My goddaughter was born and I started working at the Cannon River STEM School in Faribault, MN. 20152015 was a packed year! I spent the spring time longboarding and the fall preparing to leave Eau Claire! 2014This was one of my final years at UWEC. I spent a great deal of time at home hanging with Miranda during her senior year! 201320122011I graduated from High School in 2011! I also started college at UWEC where I met some of my best friends today! 2010
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There is comfort in the arms of Jesus. Always. I am feeling extremely comforted by the Father lately. I need His comfort, daily. I am a wreck without Jesus, friends. Life has been shaky and I've been hard and cold I think. Do you ever feel depressed this time of year? I know I do. I live in Minnesota and it can be a very depressing winter. I take pride in being an active person and the winters here are difficult. It's hard to go out and do things when it's dark at 4:00 and freezing for months. But today it was above 30 and glorious. My husband and I went for a nice walk downtown and Christmas shopped a bit. It was blissful. I'm glad I've pressed into the comfort of Jesus the past couple weeks because life is hard and it stinks sometimes and I feel like I just need to hug it out. Jesus wraps me in His arms of comfort. Thank you Jesus. I hope this short and sweet post encourages you to remember that Jesus wants to comfort you. He wants to wrap you in His arms and tell you that it will be okay.
It has been a challenging season of life for me. If you didn't know, I am pursuing my Masters in Teaching right now at St. Catherine University, and teaching full time, and running the student ministry at our church, and the list goes on. I've been so busy lately that I haven't had time to care for myself. I've been eating crap and feeling like it too. Sometimes, really daily, I ask myself if this will all be worth it. I complain. I'm angry. And I cry an awful lot. It's so frustrating. Some of you know my story of why I'm doing this grad school thing in the first place, some don't, but I'll give ya a lil snapshot. Back in 2015, I left college and didn't student teach (my final semester) all because I failed a stupid test. Ridiculous, I know. So, I wasn't able to get my teaching license. Well, years later, I was offered a teaching position without it because my admin had faith in me, and still do. It's really admirable. I appreciate everything they have done for me. They have supported me through some incredibly difficult times in my life. They walked alongside me as my parents got divorced, and then a year later, when my grandfather died and my nephew's birth. It's been a few years of life and death, and it's been hard. But, God is faithful, and I've honestly been crying out to Him a lot lately. I know this post isn't super articulate or hopeful, but it's how I'm feeling. I'm frustrated, with only two weeks left of class. I sit here on a Sunday evening, wondering how I am going to get all of the things done that I need to. I'm trying to juggle too much like I often do. I've kind of always been that type of personality. If I am not super busy, I get lonely or bored. This way, I will always have something to do, but these 12 hour days every Saturday of doing homework are getting really old, and I'm super over it. Good thing I have two weeks of the semester left.
Praise the Lord for lights at the end of our dark tunnels. Our Pastor reminded me of that today. He spoke about Zechariah and how God knew Elizabeth would have a son named John, even though they were barren. God knew there would be hope for them. Even in the darkest of seasons, there will be a light somewhere. It might be years, and we have to be okay with that. For Zechariah and Elizabeth, it was 400 years of waiting, and trusting the Lord would provide for them, even in their disbelief. God knows what He is doing. I need to try that what He is doing will bring light because He is light, in Him, there is no darkness. Sometimes I am preaching to myself. Haha. I hope this rant finds you well amid darkness (it is winter after all). Cry out to the Lord for light. |
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